WEBVTT 00:00.410 --> 00:16.400 You. The following audio recording is a classified documentation for case H 57 with the enclosure. Unauthorized access to this information will lead to immediate intervention progress further if proper clearance has been given. 00:17.410 --> 00:29.430 This episode contains discussion of mental health and ace phobia. This episode's transcript link is in the description below. Listener discretion is advised. 00:44.750 --> 00:46.970 So, what'd you think? 00:47.120 --> 00:48.940 I liked it a lot, actually. 00:49.550 --> 00:52.762 I hoped you would. The comedy seemed like your thing. 00:52.896 --> 00:59.790 It was funny. I liked the rapport between the main three. They had good chemistry. I hope they had fun filming it. 00:59.860 --> 01:06.046 Ah, shoot. Their dynamic is the best part of the movie. I really think it should have ended with him being Polly, though. 01:06.148 --> 01:06.898 What do you mean? 01:06.984 --> 01:28.086 I just think that Nolan and John's whole banter back and forth could have led to a good enemies to lovers kind of thing. And then John's relationship with Bishop. If that's canon, then I think the rivalry sort of relationship could also totally work. Hey, they're all driven by similar things, and they have shared interest, so that's always a plus. 01:28.268 --> 01:33.146 So, like, all of them dating each other? That what you mean? 01:33.248 --> 01:37.740 Yeah. I think they make a cute polycule. A thruffle, if you will. 01:38.830 --> 01:41.950 Have you ever been in a polycule? 01:43.090 --> 02:08.040 Sorta. It kind of happened by accident and entirely online, which was extra hard considering the spotted connection on the farm. None of us really knew what we were doing, and none of us really knew what we wanted out of relationship, so the whole thing ended up kind of crashing and burning real bad. I learned a lot about myself, though, and what to avoid in the future, so I think it was worth it in the end. 02:12.010 --> 02:21.530 Did you like having multiple partners? I can see the appeal, but I think it also sounds kind of exhausting. 02:21.950 --> 02:48.062 His moments are good. The times together felt real nice, at least early on. But that didn't really last. You know what they say about red flags and rose tinted glasses and all that. I would like to try it again someday with folks who are more aware of themselves and what they want. If that was on the table, you'd. 02:48.206 --> 02:49.780 Like to try again? 02:50.390 --> 02:59.270 Maybe someday again? Only if it was on the table, as if it was what my partner wanted, hypothetically. 02:59.610 --> 03:01.800 I don't think I'd mind. 03:02.410 --> 03:03.062 What? 03:03.196 --> 03:18.170 It would take time to adjust, but I think it could be nice. I struggle with making friends and meeting people, so, like, I don't know. I'd probably want to talk it out first. 03:18.240 --> 03:26.074 Oh, gosh, yeah, of course. Nah, we wouldn't go changing anything without talking about it first. Promise. 03:26.202 --> 03:26.880 Okay. 03:27.810 --> 03:30.160 That's all I really ask. 03:31.170 --> 03:34.770 What's up? You don't got to do this if you don't want to. 03:34.840 --> 03:51.206 I only say it if no, it's not that I really don't mind. It's just do I make you happy? Like, with what we have going on right now? Are we okay? 03:51.388 --> 03:58.330 Course. Oh, buttercup. This ain't about you making me happy. I love you. That ain't changing. Promise. 04:00.910 --> 04:19.886 Sorry. I've been feeling a little worried lately. So when the idea of you dating others came up, I'm genuinely fine with it. I guess I got scared it meant something about us. 04:20.068 --> 04:22.222 Worried about what? 04:22.356 --> 04:45.202 I had a talk with my therapist, Linda, recently. She asked me about us and what we are, what's our relationship. She brought up the a romantic stuff and asked if you knew. Which I told her yes because we've talked about it. Right. So she asked what made our relationship any different than like a friendship? 04:45.346 --> 04:47.414 And why is that any of her business? 04:47.532 --> 04:49.490 Because she's my therapist. 04:49.650 --> 04:55.930 Yeah, but unless you and I's relationship is something that you're working on with her, I don't see why she's pressing. 04:58.350 --> 05:21.300 It just kind of came up. She just wants to understand. I think that's her job, to try and understand. But it just made me think, got me worrying. I just want to make sure that we're okay. I'm okay with you having other partners as long as you and I are okay, you know? 05:22.150 --> 06:20.598 Beer? May I hold your hand? You make me happy. We make me happy. I like what we have as long as we're both happy. I like being your boyfriend. And having you as my partner is such a treat. I like spending time with you. I like our little jokes. I love our cuddles. I love kissing you. I love hugging you. And I also like when we're just sitting together. I like seeing you smile. I love when you go on about the movies you and Holly watched or whatever show you started. I love when you tell me about the birds in your yard. I love when you listen to me tell you about my classes and when you try to help me with my homework and practicing cooking new dishes. How you hang up my art and how you buy me supplies so I don't have to go keep buying more after working all day. I love when we sit together in silence and do our things as partners. Boyfriends? Depending on how we're feeling today. 06:20.684 --> 06:30.700 I like it. Boyfriends? I've told you I haven't had a boyfriend before, right? 06:31.470 --> 06:35.100 Which surprised me. I always imagine you'd be such a catch in college. 06:36.030 --> 06:45.034 Don't you go buttering me up. Nah, I haven't ever dated that I can recall anyways. 06:45.162 --> 06:47.354 Mind elaborating darlin. 06:47.482 --> 07:23.418 My memory is spotty for most of my life up till like moving here. That's a big thing. My therapists and I are working on helping me remember stuff. I don't have memories of previous friendships or relationships or anything. I have ideas about a family of sorts, I guess. I'm not sure. Again, working through it. But I meant it when I said that all of this was brand new to me. 07:23.584 --> 07:36.670 While that explains a lot, that's still quite a bit to take in, which is not bad. Just damn. Is there anything I can do? 07:36.820 --> 07:47.858 I have no idea. You hope so much as it is. I don't think I could ask anything else of you. And we're talking about your stuff right now. 07:47.944 --> 07:53.650 Ain't this kind of what we do, though? Volley our stuff back and forth till it's kind of out of our systems? 07:54.310 --> 08:07.602 True. So you're polyamorous, I've got amnesia stuff going on. I think we can handle all that. 08:07.756 --> 08:12.700 Yeah, I think so. Yeah? That's what you want to have us focus on first? 08:14.590 --> 08:25.886 Your stuff? I think we could at least discuss boundaries if you want to go that far. I don't have much to say on the amnesia front right now. 08:25.988 --> 08:33.790 All right, well, first, I don't need anything changing anytime soon. Okay, that helps. 08:34.390 --> 08:36.580 We've got time to figure stuff out. 08:36.950 --> 08:49.590 Sure do. No rushing on anything. Second, this is a two way street kind of thing. We both got to be down for something for us to do it, especially if it involves us, right? 08:49.740 --> 08:59.702 Right. Hey, can I pick the next movie? I'd like to kind of just sit with everything that's been said for a bit, if that's okay. 08:59.836 --> 09:08.202 I think that sounds great. How about I get dinner going and you get the movie picked out? Would you be able to help me cook, or would you rather sit and rest? 09:08.336 --> 09:11.578 As long as I'm given clear instructions, I can help cook. 09:11.674 --> 09:16.042 Can do. How about some sloppy joe's and coleslaw? 09:16.186 --> 09:20.478 And maybe those cinnamon apples you made last week? 09:20.644 --> 09:22.058 I've got plenty of apples. 09:22.154 --> 09:24.810 And I've got that whole spice rack for you in the cupboard. 09:24.890 --> 09:33.842 Babe, you don't gotta convince me. If you're helping cook, I'm happy to make a little more food. Now let's get dinner cooked before we settle in for another movie. What are you thinking? 09:33.976 --> 09:38.994 I caught a movie last night that I'd like to watch again. You ever seen the Birdcage? 09:39.122 --> 09:41.446 Not in years. Let's do it. 09:41.548 --> 09:45.910 All right, well, what should I get on first, chef? 09:48.570 --> 10:03.840 This episode of Jar of Rebuke was written by Casper Oliver. Assistant writers were Jenny O'sullin and Mish Ward. Voices were provided by in order of appearance. Nassa Are, Vin Vox, Casper, Oliver, Me. 10:04.770 --> 10:07.530 Audio is edited by Jason LaRock. 10:07.690 --> 10:11.230 Our series is distributed by thesperians productions. 10:11.730 --> 10:13.182 If you would like to support this. 10:13.236 --> 10:19.420 Indie queer led production team, check us out on patreon or on our website for our shop and other donation options.